Yo blogspot, it's been long yeh! Didn't go home, no lappie to use, no proper update. I'm updating now using Hun's phone.
Today is the last day of September! Time running faster & faster. Sometimes I feel that everyone is running so quickly & I couldn't catch up with the pace. Then on second thought, it's not them, it's me. I've slow down so much so much. Relaxed too much, played too much, enjoyed too much and having too much fun since the day I stopped working. Bad bad me. Imma put a stop to it. Gotta get my ass up & be the usual independent Miao I used to be ;) Start to work hard for the future!
Jun asked if I see you as my future husband.. With no hesitation I answered her. Then she asked what's my ideal age to get married. Seriously, at times I have the urge to get married. It's like... a real commitment, a new phrase in life, new experience. It's not that I'm not committed now, it's just not the same kind. One friend of mine just got married, looking at the smiles on their faces, I feel so warm & the taste of happiness. Then soon another friend of mine is getting married making me kinda envious! Haha! Felt so happy for them! You found the right one & get married, settle down, work hard for each other; sweetest phrase in life! Don't you think so?
Then I think again, i think I'm still too young for marriage. Though I always say that I haven have enough fun yet.. That was not the main reason. For now, I feel that I've found the right one but it's like we're still too young for all that. I'm still not ready yet, for marriage. I don't fear commitment responsibility burden or whatsoever it's time. Many was saying I'm getting myself to get married. Haha. Like a real! I rather we can stay under the same roof now than aft we move in tgt & we find that it's hard, you can't take it this and that. That's y sometimes I hope my parents are more open minded, more supportive towards me rather than going against me most of the time.
I miss them loads! Seriously. No matter what's done what's said, I miss them. They are still my family it's just that I don't don't how to face my parents. Sigh. It's my fault actually couldn't blame anyone. I'm being too playful. Sorry Pa, Ma!
Been kinda emotional lately. Really hate it hate it hate it. This word suddenly came into me "paranoid fuck". Dang! Couldn't help it, have tried my best though. But me knows that me is controlling well enough. Like yesterday, I feel that you don't love me.. Haha weird bitch. How to explain? Like... sometimes I feel your love sometimes I don't? Throw in all the common terms used quick! " paranoid fuck, over sensitive, think too much, irritated" yada yada.. Haiyaaaaaaaa i find myself so annoying at times! Sheeseeeeeeeee! Ok enough of ranting! Feel much better :)
Tmr, I needa get my ass down to TPY hub for a seminar with Kenneth. Hope everything goes on smoothly! If that path doesn't work, I have to work on plan b already! But better it works haha. December to jakata for a wedding din! I'm so so so excited & happy for them at the same time ;)
Ok bbyeeee!
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